MOVED FOR THE NTH TIME!

ma homies!
i'm off to...

HTTP://YANBIROG.CO.NR

same link, just a different blog address hehehehehehe

>:)

what if! what if! he comes across this blog and reads everything i've written about him? what if?! what the fuuuuuck. that's why i wanted to have private entries at blogger! go do something!

he's fucking trying to catch me off guard. what the hell. i wonder why he's so keen on knowing who my crush is. e ano mapapala mo? wala naman a! wala!

ano raw?!

before, i never believed that scorpios are utterly possive and jealous beings. maybe because i haven't had something/one i wanna hold just for myself. BUT NOW. i can frakking feel the jealousy creeping through my veins, piercing my heart. it's fucking painful. and what's worse is that, i loved a fellow scorpio. and if we do the same things, it's not going anywhere.

see. he flirts everytime i see him. and i try so hard to suppress the jealousy from oozing out cos i might release 'classified' information, aka, my feelings for him. it's the last thing i wanna show him, that I LOVE HIM. it's in my personality, i'm someone who doesn't want to show how i care so much. that's bad, i guess. =__=;

and there! he flirts! grrr... everytime he sees someone pretty, he goes gago! ok, gaga. grrr... nakakagalit. pwede ba kasing sakin ka lang? last time i checked, i'm your best friend! and though i only agreed to it because you said so, believe me, i felt like i was part of your world. part of your family. even though we're not really like best friends who share everything (if i do then i'm doomed) and do stupid things together, i loved being your best friend because, it's like a title i can hold on to when it comes to you. brian's best friend. that's someone important right? yeah right. 

so i find myself yielding. not getting in the way, supporting him every step of the way. with every girl. even though it hurts. for hope's sake, i'm kinda fantasizing that maybe he's just waiting for me to show some signs of jealousy. but no, i'm so good at hiding it. so good that i pretend to have a big crush on someone else so he wouldn't think he's the only guy in my life.

that's how i am. i become too scared to show my attachment to one person who i'm not sure is attached with me in the same way. i'm more concerned with saving my pride, per se. 

and so i may seem like i don't care a lot about him! i talk with equal fervor with my other guy friends and laugh a lot with them. i sometimes wonder if he feels jealous that i'm having more fun with them that i am with him. i want to know if he feels that way sometimes. i want to know if he really wants my company or just wants someone to be with. 

i'm like that. i stick with someone who's there. but if there're a lot, i stick with the most important person for me. it's important for me not to be alone. 

i love him. i really do, and i get hurt everyday because of it. 

tamaright!

why bother, really? you're as free as you can be. i'm as free as i can be, as well! you do your own thing, i do mine! we'll care for each other like good friends do, and it stops there. like good friends do. period. must it really?

everyday you make me jealous. do you know that? course not, cos i don't show it. and i will never. not unless we're legit. i mean, come oooon. i have little right to be jealous because we're best friends. but you know, too much jealousy is something. grrr...

sus

aaaah, the cheek tint isn't a complete waste, after all. haha